Bad Day

I NEED to find a stress reliever. My body will start doing it for me if i don't... like last night.... I had a really rather x rated dream and my body reacted to it and made a mess in my bed... It was unintentional but it set my mind a spinning. i got bored and went onto a site that Jacob showed me called StumbleUpon. Most of the stuff that showed up was just funny or interesting. but occasionally some more explicit material would show up. I didn't do anything to stop it... and my body started to react... :-( i feel terrible. one of said sites came up just as someone was coming home and in the rush of the images and the slow loading time to change the page and the trill of trying not to get caught all compounded on me and exploded in a release i couldn't stop. i am so sorry. This is a lot like that other "one stupid day" i told about i think in a previous post. all i can do is beg forgiveness. and hope that the love of those i speak with will be greater than their disappointment. Before all this i wanted to reach out to my honey bee but she was in class and i couldn't communicate with here in anyway. Here i tell the world that i am sorry. I am so sorry.... :'(