Day Off

This is something very much needed. I am/was just WAY to stressed. About school with all the homework. I have my art project and i have my business worksheets and i have my engineering work. And there is my job. I Hate my job. My boss has no motivation and makes us feel of low worth. I have to work terrible hours including overnight shifts. I need my sleep! Last night i could not sleep till 4 in the morning or later! my mind was turning over everything i have to do. I was so scarred that day K came home and caught my at my darlings place. Oh i love her. i hate not being able to be with her and call her and tell her how i feel. I just want to reach out to her but i cant! IT HURTS INSIDE!!! i feel i have hurt her with some of the poor decisions i have made these past few months. I have been doing better but just as i think i am getting there BAM! :'-(
So i am taking today off. I am staying home. Working on my self portrait and watching TV. I blew off work this morning too... :-/ I hadn't had any sleep. If i fell asleep at work i would have been fired. I would get sick from lack of sleep(as i do sometimes/ and as i was a little this morning) and have to spend too much time in the bathroom. being of NO help during the busiest shift of the day. So i got written up. but at least i'm not fired or sick(anymore). GAH this day. I just want to start over! i just want to cry but no one is here with a shoulder to cry on... :-( i just dont know what to do... my head hurts... my heart hurts... Oh my darling where are you? i really need you right now :'-( Oh well. that's my update.